Friday, December 30, 2005
I'm Sorry. but i'm not holding any punches back either
I'm sorry for flicking the finger.
I'm sorry for being so confrontational, so antagonistic, so aggro.
I'm sorry, 'cos I actually provoked them in all the instances.
I'm sorry for feeling more disgusted at them than I logically should have, because they were a church team.
I'm sorry for letting down my friends and letting them see this side of me.
But I'm not sorry for the rollicking good performance both CCU teams put up. Even though we were last and second last.
I'm not sorry, seeing people who are not natural footballers (like me) trying their best and having fun at the same time.
I'm not sorry for having played a part in organising a successful tournament.
I'm not sorry for being surrounded by the people I am surrounded by.
I could do much worse.
I'm not sorry that I didn't miss out on this great chance and experience, either by circumstance or choice. Or a convenient mixture of both.
I'm not sorry to see classy teams like SJINCC, sewei and yongteng's team, and GCX and TCX's team do well.
Especially SJINCC, not just because they're from SJI. They handled a hostile situation brilliantly, with dignity restraint and integrity, made me proud to be Lasallian today.
Thanks to Ben, Weiqi, Salman, Omar, Aston( great job!), Eddie(especially to eddie for taking care of dicky), Dicky(a valiant casualty!), Max, Mat, Daryl, Pravin( the destroya! ) and everyone else who made this possible!
And thanks a lot 6F. really.
yaay. Collecting my pay later today.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Why was I all moody the last post? Christmas wasn't that bad .. In fact I enjoyed it! Maybe it was the fact that true to our tradition, the police got called on us .. Again. I think this is like how many years running, with the exception of that time at the beaufort. I think we're getting rather adept at handling police questioning, esp with the help of Kelvin (Calvin?) this year.
Oh karaoke today was fun fun fun! We were like "last song, last song" to the girl working there and in the end we just waited till all the songs on our list ended. 40 minutes pass the time we were supposed to scram we were singing sex bomb at the top of our voices ... hilarious. Then we bid a hasty retreat out of that place.
Following a friend's style, I shall try to find someone to dutifully note down all the happenings of today and then link later.
Right now as I type i'm eating like .. the BEST EVERY CURRY PUFF MADE. EVER. My mom just baked it and it's fresh from the oven. oh my god it's sinful. its sooo good. gggaaaahhh.
Oh. And MY FRIEND EARNS IN RINGGIT. ROFL.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Do they know it's Christmas-time at all?
Hey hey an obligatory Christmas post! I just read a very depressing entry from someone so I'm trying to keep my spirits up. Doesn't help that I'm feeling very tired and cranky. Blerdy woken up at 10 am by an sms. TEN AM! Who's bloody awake at that ungodly hour?
Sigh. Do they know it's christmas-time at all? Christmas-time used to be this fantastico blur of stayovers with the whole extended family present. Everyday from 24th all the way up to new year's day and till we had no choice but to get ready for school the next day. And each day seemed to be funner than the previous. And I used to be so carefree. Everything was fine, everyone was cool.
When I was small, and christmas trees were tall.
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by.
Some one else moved in from far away.
Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small.
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die.
But guess we’ll cry, come first of may
Now I find myself feeling jaded and lame at family gatherings. I try to look up and stuff, everyone's still nice, still family. But it's not the same.
Every year I seem to get lonelier. Friends, acquaintances, accoutrements. Quoting a friend, "Everyone's acquaintance and no-one's friend.
Everyone's friend and no one's lover.
Alone. "
Erm, but not THAT dramatic lah.
And of course it doesn't help when people ignore you. More than angry words I fear the silence, it's getting so loud.
There you go I tried to start it happy but it just veered off to the next lane.
